Camilleon

Happy 2026! I’ve been going back and forth on the direction of this blog, and I’ve decided to simply let it be a public journal—a place for the thoughts swirling in my head that I can’t quite seem to pin down. You can expect reflections on grief, motherhood, and finding joy in simplicity. I will post tips for being a working mom (pumping and bottle feeding an exclusively breastfed baby) and keeping the ever growing curiosity of a preschooler entertained.

I’m a mother to two girls: Nina, my creative 3.5-year-old, and Fania Jane, my sweet two-month-old. If you’d like to follow along, please feel free to sign up for my newsletter in the footer of this page. One of my resolutions for the new year is to post here once a month.

I always begin the year with a month-long social media fast; my main goal is to become more purposeful with my time. Thirteen days in, I’ve finally finished the Fourth Wing audiobook (only to realize the sequel is 28 hours long!).

I am constantly surprised by how busy staying at home actually is. Keeping the house clean feels like chasing my own tail. Between pumping, nursing, and bottle-training Fania Jane—all while trying to remain present for my toddler—the days are exhausting. I am often wondering how other mothers make this work. I often go to sleep feeling inadequate, heavy with regret that I can’t be there for Nina the way I used to be. She is so understanding, yet it breaks my heart every time I have to say “not right now” because I’m nursing or busy. I don’t have the solution for this feeling yet; I just wanted to share it so that if you feel the same way, you know you are heard.

For now, I will continue playing the “let’s see how I can conquer the world during my baby’s 1.5 hour nap” game. I’d love to hear from you. How are you navigating the ‘middle’ of it all?